Thank You !

Last Friday I wrote of some recent struggles. I used my blog to express my feelings without much restraint. I posted it and left for school feeling like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. That didn’t last long though. As my day went on I began to think about some of the things I had said. I started to wonder if my choice to share such intimate feelings was wise. It wasn’t long before I was wondering what others would think of me.
I debated deleting the post to avoid the scrutiny of those who might read it. My insides filled with dread as I imagined their possible reactions. I expected judgments and whispers. I expected to be criticized and condemned. I don’t know why. I guess because that is so often the reaction. (I know you know what I mean.)
WELL, I have to admit, I didn’t give my friends nearly enough credit. As God so graciously reminded me; I have wonderful, compassionate and understanding friends. Instead of giving some half-hearted advice of “hang in there” or “don’t let it get you down” they responded with words of support and reassurance and even shared some personal struggles of their own. That is what friendship is all about, when one is weak the others share the burden, when one is sinking the others hold their head above the water so they don’t drown, and when one expresses their innermost feelings the others withhold judgment and just encourage. It feels so good to know that I have that kind of friends. I am grateful to God for putting them in my life and thankful to them for putting up with me.


(Just a side note)- - - Although I am not prepared to share the exact circumstances that lead to my emotional outburst, I do want to clarify one thing: it is not my marriage. When I reread the post, it occurred to me that it might be taken to be a marital issue; it is not.